i can be considered a manager cos i’m in the third or maybe fourth layer. that’s the problem with public sector where there can be multiple layers of managers on top of you. so, when a particular task has to be done, it will go through all these layers, hence taking a long time to take action.

and also there is no clear picture on job description. on what level should i stop delegating. the problem with delegation of work is that more often than not, it doesn’t turn out the way you want it to be. of course if you want something done right, you gotta do it yourself, tapi larat ke nak buat semua kerja.

when i observe other colleagues, or my ex-bosses, they often delegate most of the work to the desk officers, hence making all the work cram in the desk of the officer, literally!! so, i like to reserve the most difficult task to do myself. but this has two main effects, one is denying the chance for the desk officer to learn, and second is that the officer becomes too dependent on me, the boss.

when i was a desk officer, i always do my work independently, ie. always trying to manage everything without going to my bosses. that and the fact that i was an egoistic person, always wanting to show that i can do it myself. but now, i always prefer to refer to my boss, since i’ve learnt that he has different approach as i do, so i might as well follow his approach, else i need to re-do everything twice. and also i notice that lately i’ve lost the ability to make good judgement and also to make good decision. now, actually decision-making is a very important criteria of a good manager. no decision is a bad decision. it’s better to make a bad one, than not making one at all.

that’s why lately i’ve been contemplating on furthering my studies. according to my ex-boss cum my colleague, by going for further studies, it opens our mind to new perspective and really helps in givng new ideas useful in our job.

so i guess, i’m applying for that study grant this year. not guaranteed that i will get it, since they say that the list is ready even before the interview! *gasp* that’s what they say. but we don’t know for sure, so there is no harm in trying. kalau ada rezeki dapatlah. one other problem, i still don’t know how to do the proposal paper. haiyaa…camanelah nak buat master ni, buat paper pun tak reti…

Just a quick update. I’ve received the offer letter y’day during a short ceremony in Putrajaya. So, no more question mark on when or where? But where exactly, I still don’t know. I hope I’m not moving out cos I know I’ll get all the backings I need from my friends here. But whether my boss will accept me, I still don’t know. Pls take me in, boss…*batting my eyelashes…* I know I argue a lot with u…but I will work my 4-set-of-bones (tulang empat kerat…hehe), I promise u!

And, Luqman’s bday party gonna be this sunday, the 5th of april, insya Allah. Altho he’ll not be 1 year until the 14th, it’ll be my bday party as well. So, my beloved friends, u guys are invited if u can make it. Tapi takde paksaan since I understand there’s a lot of constraints…

I hope the stars will continue shining for me, Amin…

Last week I went  on an all-expenses-paid trip to Melaka and Johor. It’s a 3 days 2 nites trip, mostly to check out latest development in both states on biotech and learn what we can.

Nway, 1st nite we went for seafood in umbai. But I dun know whether it’s my headache but I find the food not appetising. Sorryla to umbai seafood lovers. But the 2nd nite, we had dinner in Danga Bay’s Singgah Selalu restaurant. I’m not being biased just bcos I’m from JB, tapi mmg best sgt food kat situ. Yumm…

The Zon by the sea is a cool place to stay if u’re a clubbing kinda person. I’m SO not. So, I find the place quite loud and surrounded by pubs/clubs. The good thing is that it’s beside the zon shopping complex and I heard the occupants get 10% discount, but I was too tired to go shopping.

The more I travel alone, the more I was missing hubby’s company. It was no fun travelling without him. It’d be more enjoyable to go shopping and buffet breakfast with him. I’m sure I’ll eat e’thing on the buffet spread.

By the 2nd day, I was sick wth missing adik and abang so much. No more outstation pls…

Why oh why… is it so easy for me to lose my patience nowadays? Of course life is full of tests. We just have to endure and try our best to overcome whatever comes in the way.  Sabar kan separuh dari iman…nampak sgtlah kurangnya iman dlm diriku ini.

Y’day we went back at 10pm. And today I can foresee that we’re gonna stay back again. All of a sudden, ad-hoc assignments come in folds.. Semua nak kena siap cepat. And at the same time, kerja2 sektoral pun makin banyak.

So weird…last 2 weeks I was quite free. Boleh sembang2. Keluar beli baju & tudung masa lunch. Skrg bz je. Just now during lunch, I practically lost it to the practical student. I know he is being proactive, arranged for an appointment with the newspaper during lunch. But I was so hungry. I hate it when he does stuff without consulting me first. But my Dr. boss was ok with it.

This is bad. I must learn to calm down. Chill…

Everyone’s been telling me that i look like i’ve gained weight. “Puan pregnant ker?” My clerk, As asked me the other day. “Diorang sumer ingatkan puan pregnant.” Especially bcos last week i bought KFC snack plate for everyone. Actually saja je belanja, cos masa jadik LO haritu, I got a HUGE tip! But they thot the treat was sempena I got a new baby!!! hahaha!! Lawak betol la.

Anyways…the point is I’m fat, and I feel depressed.

So, just now during lunch I bought myself 2 tudungs. Dark pink and turqouise blue. It’s a good shopping therapy