if i post an entry everyday, what would that mean?? haha…u guessed rite. i’ve been so, so free this week. i have no work at all. suddenly all my workloads are gone after i’ve passed them down to my staff. maybe i pass it down much too early, huh? nvm, as if they have anything better to do.

but of course, i do feel a tinge of guilt. but i try my best to justify my actions (or lack of action..hehe!) by thinking that i REALLY, REALLY have NO work to do!!! so, i think it’s quite ok for me to go eat, or read papers, or blogging, or checking my emails during my free time. u dun think so? ermm…risau gak sbb ini dah melibatkan rezeki. taknakla my baby mkn rezeki yg tak halal/tak berkat pulak. tapi what can i do?? i asked hubby. he said it’s ok kalau mmg takde keja, tapi kena stay there and standby lah, in case there is any..

hmm…

anyway, i’m just so happy!!! cos UGLY BETTY is BACK!!!!! hahaha!!! so now, i’m hooked in front of the tv tues nite while hubby goes membawak diri surfing the internet. not that he minds. in fact, he’ll be glad cos there’s no wifey menyibuk2 sharing the internet, trying to fit into the same chair just bcos she is damn bored. but the minute he leaves the pc. i leave it too and follow him anywhere…hahaha!! get a life, gal!!!
and prison break is also back starting last monday. but i just REFUSE to let hubby knows that I LIKE IT TOO!! so, i watch in this bored mood as if i’m being forced to watch cos hubby is watching it. but i hafta refrain maself from continuing to watch once the scene gets too violent. dun want my baby to get influenced by it. so, i need to wait till he gets out first…hehe!!

more stories tomorro insya Allah. if i’m still standing, that is…

Monday morning! I have to go to the office…!!

I already took 4 days MC last week, so I can’t just continue until Raya Haji. Health wise, I feel better, yeah. I take gamat healin emulsion (tastes so yucky!!), ranitidine and regular MMT. It’s just mild pain now, if any. Most of the time, if I’m eating rite, then there is no pain. ‘Eating rite’ is porridge with veges like carrot, potato, cauliflower and broccoli, grilled fish, plain bread, oats. And definitely no milk, sugar, coffee, chocolate including milo, spicy food (sobs..) and ice cream (tskk..). Knowing me, I already ordered pizza on saturday..nothing spicy, k..haha! But Alhamdulillah, I’m still okay..

Today is time to catch up with office work. My boss will be away Tuesday to Friday, so a lot of things that I have to manage without his presence. I don’t have too much work going on since I have delegated most of the work and just managing my staff. So, it’s just waiting for them to finish up the work. No doubt, I can do most of it myself in less time, but doing that would leave them with nothing to do, and they would go ’snake’ing around (mengulor). So, better leave me with nothing to do, so that I can do better things like updating this and reading 2000 plus email in my inbox!

I have pc @ home, but I seldom use it. Usually it’s hubby’s territory since he’s bz in the clinic that he has no time whatsoever to surf. Plus he has such integrity that he wouldnt use office’s stuff for personal use, including internet. So, he just surf for medical purposes. I really salute him for that. I know I wouldn’t use office pen or phone for my personal use but u know how many hours I’ve been surfing for my own use. But the connection is 24 hrs, so they would still pay regardless how many hours of usage.

So that’s why I didn’t write anything during my days @ home. Ohh..I went to Cameron on Wednesday. I know I was supposed to be sick. But hubby already took leave Tues to Fri to bring maam to go buy the cheap and ever-so-fresh Cameron veggies. So, I had to tag along cos I dun wanna be left alone. Of cos my broinlaw also wants to follow. So, the short trip we planned didn’t really materialise. Sure we hafta go eat2 plus drink2 and buy strawberries and check out the teahouses only to find out that some are closed. So, there we go round and round, pointless. Needless to say, I was in alot of pain when we came back.

As a conclusion, I could say that my pain threshold is really low so I have really low tolerant towards pain. And ever since I got married till now, I’ve been having multiple health problems. Doubtless they are non-serious cases but everyday I would complain and complain to hubby and he is at loss of what medication to give me to make the pain go away or to make me feel better. And most of the time, the problems heal in time where PATIENCE is the best medicine. Which I have none… My jodoh with hubby who is a doctor is a real test for him, and for me as well. A test that he endured with patience, and one which I failed miserably.

Kesakitan ialah satu ujian yang dapat meningkatkan keimanan sekiranya dihadapi dengan sabar.

hubby was down with flu and fever yesterday. it was the first time he had ever fallen sick ever since we got married and it made me so worried. he sleeps all the time, eats so little and not being his cheery self. i continuously checked on him, and his temperature while changing the wet towel on his forehead. i was restless the whole time, can’t watch tv, can’t do anything.

Alhamdulillah, by asar his fever was gone. and his appetite was back during dinner.

it was just a fever!! i need to learn to relax next time!!

we drove to kl after friday prayers. people are joyful in celebration of festive merdeka but i am joyful celebrating going back to kl yeahyeah!!! after checking in at sunway tower, we went to e**a’s ‘open’ house. she invited some close friends to get together in her new house. unfortunately, everybody already left by the time we arrived. it’s nice meeting an old friend. i’ve been friends with her since high school, my classmate and roommate during a-level, and my coursemate and housemate in univ. i see that she’s having a great life. married to her boyfriend since a-levels, they have a 2-yr old son. apart from her maid who just fled last month, everything is going great for her. i’m so happy for her.

then we went to kak dah’s house with kak ja and her son, akim. i really missed adik and abang so much!!! they are so chubby and so adorable. i laughed nonstop at their cute acts. but i know i was entertained bcos i love them so much. so, whatever they do, i find it funny. but i dun care.

saturday, hubby went to his course. i was meeting her. i missed her and i wanna listen to her stories. but i know that she knows that there is nothing i can do to make her happy. but i hope that she had a good time with me. i’m sorry if i didnt talk much, cos i wanna listen more. i thot i could understand how u feel, but maybe i dont. maybe i have no idea how painful it is for u. but i hope u can be strong. as i always say, ada hikmah for everything that happened.

hubby n i didnt even watch the movie that we booked that nite cos i didnt feel well. we had dinner in manhattan fish market but i spend half the time trying to keep my food in. something in the food had triggered the nauseous feeling. while we’re bz attacking our seafood, a male celebrity walked in with his family. okay, a hint – he acted in my fave series manjalara. i told hubby not to stare at them. i really hate to make these actors think as if they are so famous. they went to a table at the back, right beside ours. but when the waiter ask them whether they wanna move to the front, that guy answered ‘ nvm, i dun want people to watch’, euurgh!! talk about perasan. who wants to look at them??

i know u are known. but that is just in the dramas. in real-life, i dun think people actually cared that much about u.. but we do watch bcos somehow ur face looks familiar, and we need something to distract us from throwing up our food!! so, please live like any other normal person.

then, on sunday we went to OU and ikea. we planned to rearrange our room - where to put the baby cot, where to put the new chest drawers for baby stuff, i was so excited!!

then it’s time to go home. we were always together at home, but being away together makes me feel closer to him than ever. and loving him more than ever..

i dun know how to describe what i feel. this visit is like taking a peep into his life. this is him at home where his life with his mother has already been established. and it actually scares me. i really dun know whether i’ll be able to adapt to his life. and the point is, do i have to adapt? do i really have to follow their established routines, or can i set my own? but i tell myself to take things slowly. i dun want to be worried over trivial things. i have yet to discuss these things with him. but i dun know what to tell him in the first place. darling, i dun like to adjust my life to follow ur routine…or darling, can we reset ur life? but marriage is all about tolerance, giving and taking. one party might always be at the receiving end, while the other always end up giving. so why should i make such a big fuss about it even if i always end up giving?

last nite during a conversation, i accidentally called his mother Ma, when i usually call her Makcik. i was so embarassed! but nobody took notice, or maybe they pretended like they didn’t hear it. whatever…but i hope i won’t have the tongue slip again!!