..with me. being sick is one thing. but not knowing my sickness is another. all this while i thot my sickness has something to do with my gastro. but today, i went to see a gastro specialist…and he said otherwise. if i had been taking the medication like i did and there’s no improvement, then he said it’s probably not my stomache afterall. it could be due to my pregnancy, maybe the weight is pulling somewhere that makes it hurt. *sigh* i hardly gained anything. i only managed to gain 0.2 kg since last month’s checkup. so, i dun know what to believe now. i’m terribly in pain that i just wanna lie down…

..with her. i just wanna be there and cry with her. no matter how painful i feel, i know that her pain is much more. but she is strong. i wish she knew that. and i wish she would tell me. maybe the time is not rite. but i just want her to know that i’m always here to listen. i always pray for her. but i’ll pray harder…

it was a sudden decision. it was something that i just had to do. and hubby gave the green light.

i wanted to attend the open house. not because i’m such a sucker for free food or such a fan of social gathering. the reason i wanted to go is because i wanna keep this friendship.

i believe my good intention was blessed since everything went well for me. i got the bus ticket to and fro easily. yeah, i took the bus cos u know i can’t drive long distance without getting the backache or get sleepy.

7.30 am i was starting my journey, slept peacefully until somehow i felt like the bus swerve abit. then, i was too scared to get back to sleep. so i read metro and rd that i brought with me while sucking the asam to keep the nausea away.

thanks 4 the good time K’D. thanks 4 babysitting me (as u put it!). but it was such a short time with coops. there’s lotsa other things i wanna talk about. but didnt have the chance to.

and i’m glad i made the trip. cos i havent met her for a long time. and despite all the differences, she had been such a good friend and always around for me. so, i cherish the friendship.

i took the bus back at 3.50 pm just on time b4 the bus make its move. and i reached ipoh safely in the comfort of hubby’s arms at 6.30 pm.

i look forward to meeting u guys again next week. but i dont think i’ll be able to make it friday. i cant possibly take the bus again and leave them, rite? so, saturday it is. i wont bring the whole batallion, just the 2 of us, insya Allah. Pls keep the soto heated, k?

it was picked up, finally. and i hear the voice. short but enuff to ease my mind…

we drove to kl after friday prayers. people are joyful in celebration of festive merdeka but i am joyful celebrating going back to kl yeahyeah!!! after checking in at sunway tower, we went to e**a’s ‘open’ house. she invited some close friends to get together in her new house. unfortunately, everybody already left by the time we arrived. it’s nice meeting an old friend. i’ve been friends with her since high school, my classmate and roommate during a-level, and my coursemate and housemate in univ. i see that she’s having a great life. married to her boyfriend since a-levels, they have a 2-yr old son. apart from her maid who just fled last month, everything is going great for her. i’m so happy for her.

then we went to kak dah’s house with kak ja and her son, akim. i really missed adik and abang so much!!! they are so chubby and so adorable. i laughed nonstop at their cute acts. but i know i was entertained bcos i love them so much. so, whatever they do, i find it funny. but i dun care.

saturday, hubby went to his course. i was meeting her. i missed her and i wanna listen to her stories. but i know that she knows that there is nothing i can do to make her happy. but i hope that she had a good time with me. i’m sorry if i didnt talk much, cos i wanna listen more. i thot i could understand how u feel, but maybe i dont. maybe i have no idea how painful it is for u. but i hope u can be strong. as i always say, ada hikmah for everything that happened.

hubby n i didnt even watch the movie that we booked that nite cos i didnt feel well. we had dinner in manhattan fish market but i spend half the time trying to keep my food in. something in the food had triggered the nauseous feeling. while we’re bz attacking our seafood, a male celebrity walked in with his family. okay, a hint – he acted in my fave series manjalara. i told hubby not to stare at them. i really hate to make these actors think as if they are so famous. they went to a table at the back, right beside ours. but when the waiter ask them whether they wanna move to the front, that guy answered ‘ nvm, i dun want people to watch’, euurgh!! talk about perasan. who wants to look at them??

i know u are known. but that is just in the dramas. in real-life, i dun think people actually cared that much about u.. but we do watch bcos somehow ur face looks familiar, and we need something to distract us from throwing up our food!! so, please live like any other normal person.

then, on sunday we went to OU and ikea. we planned to rearrange our room - where to put the baby cot, where to put the new chest drawers for baby stuff, i was so excited!!

then it’s time to go home. we were always together at home, but being away together makes me feel closer to him than ever. and loving him more than ever..