why is it so hard to find good friends nowadays? when i thought someone is a good friend, that i can have friendly chat at the end of the day, it turns out to be the other way around.
when i reminisce, this has started a long, long time ago, and sadly i just do not know where i went wrong. i seemed to be ‘repelling’ friends away. and often i pretend as if i don’t care, but actually, i do. maybe it’s my ego, well, i don’t know.
it is even harder to find friends who share the same values as i do. i put religion as top priority, that includes praying, fasting, wearing muslimah clothes, don’t talk behind someone’s back and so on. but i live in a community that’s just the opposite, and i find it very hard to advice and influence them to be with me. ”Jom kita sign up kelas tajwid”, or ”jom kita dengar ceramah agama?”. how can i advice them?

i feel sad in the office cos since i get promoted, i’ve been left out due to my busy schedule. and i feel that my friends are not supporting me, especially a particular friend in the office. i think she’s starting to draw away from me. nak buruk sangka tak baik pulak..

the point is, i’m not strong enough. i always let other factors affect my emotion and mood, and it is NOT GOOD!!