i hate social functions. especially when there is certain protocol u have to observe. that’s why i cringe when the big boss wants to put me in charge of handling events aka event manager. so far away from my engineering nature. i am a technical person ok..and i really hate being the person behind all this. not to mention that i was so poor in delegating work. i am so gila kuasa  that i want to do everything myself, my own way! haha…take my wedding for example. if i could, i wanna do every single thing myself until my sisters are like…whateverla…sukatila!! kalau boleh, masak pun nak buat sendiri. so if i were to handle functions, i would die cos i can’t possibly cope doing everything alone. but if i delegate the work, then i wouldn’t  be able to stand it if it is not up to my ISO!! yeah i have this Monica syndrome! but it wasn’t as bad as b4 ok…i’ve toned down alot already… but anyway, it is still not confirmed. even after nearly 2 weeks, they still can’t decide where to put me! and i’m left floating in the air… an ol’ guy approach me yesterday while i was bz flipping thru the papers. i was just killing time b4 going to the lib which opens at 9am. he was saying..

‘hi, u’re still here?’

nope..i’m not here. this is only my body that u see…. ‘yeah, they haven’t post me anywhere yet. they did mention P** section but still not confirmed. plus there is no room for me there’

‘really? u know what, i think better u go to the P** Section and ask them if there is anything that u can do to help. i mean, it’s not good for ur image to be sitting here, reading the papers. these people here won’t simply ask u to do anything bcos they can’t direct u. and the hr boss won’t be back until friday. i mean, of cos u can sit here. i mean, it’s up to u, there’s no harm. but this is just an advice from me, an older guy. be pro active. so that u can show them that..oh i’m contributing sthing’

ouch..that hurts man! ‘oh…yeah..maybe u’re rite. ok, i’ll go down to P** section and check out if there is anything to do there’. and so i went down…not to P** section, but to check out my friend who is in the same batch, but wasn’t around last week. she wanted to do check up in hosp ipoh for her pregnancy-9-months-ol’ and guess what? i just tagged along..cos i was so bored!!! i mean, going to a room full of big-bellied ladies wasn’t exactly such a wow thing for me…but at least i can runaway and can borak with someone familiar, at last!

okay…not that i don’t wanna be pro active. but people here are so unfriendly and unwelcoming that i’m so unmotivated to even offer my service here. in fact i’ve visited P** section but the boss wasn’t eager to receive me. ‘oh…so u’re maybe posted here? i don’t knowlah..there is no room…*mumbling*…but of cos…yeah…sure…why not’. …yeah, rite! as if i’m gonna beg him to take me.

but whatever it is…just give me something to do! give me work! any work! at this extent, i would even vacuum the floor or make tea or despatch the letters…whatever!! just GIVE ME WORK!!!