Always last minute. At the moment, i’m struggling with my e-filing cos today is the last day to submit the BE form. I’m sure there are thousands of people out there, just like me. That’s y the network is so slow. It takes forever to login to the e-borang. But i don’t want to blame myself. Yeah, i know i should manage my time…bla..bla..bla. But i was bz!!! I just came back from a week of travelling south and north. monday to thursday in jb, and continue to penang until friday.

a weird thing happened to me friday morning. i woke up for subuh as usual. but the moment i got up from the hotel bed, i sorta like passed out and hit my head at the tv cabinet. it was a great blow. and my face was bruised plus a bump on my forehead as if i’d been hit by someone. and i was so scared!! i was alone and if anything happened to me, nobody would know. as usual, i consulted my personal doctor and he said i should watch out for any nausea or vomitting. but knowing me, i became so anxious cos i was so worried. With the day just around the corner, i really don’t want anything to happen to me. But i know that we are just humans. What we can do is just to tawakal. The head pain is still there even after 3 days. I am so negative. Whenever something happen to me, the first thot in my mind is that … am i dying? am i having a disease? last time when i was going to take HIV test, i was so afraid i would be diagnosed positive. and he was laughing at me!! he said, if i were positive, i wouldn’t be this healthy. i would suffer from continuous problem like continuous flu, or fever or something. True enuff, it was negative. and he kept on laughing. Same thing with this head blow. He said if i got a concussion, i would be bed-ridden by now… Ok…i guess he got a point there…

IB and i did facial on saturday at LD. I just cant remember the last time i did one. And my face just felt so smooth afterwards. i’m definitely gonna go again next week. The therapist didn’t touch the bruises areas. I told her that i accidentally hit a cabinet but she had this look that she didn’t believe me. I felt like a marital abuse victim..ha..ha!!

Saturday morning b4 IB came, i went to Gombak with my sisters plus one broinlaw in search of this boutique. They want to hunt for attire for my big day. I want to find a new wardrobe. So we went. I managed to grab a nice jubah-pants outfit, a short jubah, a tudung and even tailor-made a long pant suit. Ok i’m broke…and i still have a wedding to go through….*sigh* But this is important cos i don’t have anything proper to wear after the wedding. i have to gradually change my wardrobe. and let’s start with 3… They all managed to get the owner to make their embroidered baju kurung and get it ready b4 the day. and they are spending so much for my event, and it made me felt so touched!! the theme was supposed to be peach. but my version of peach is apparently different from their version. i had this dark yellow in mind but they said peach is somehow orange coming to pink in colour. so, in the end, i just dont care. buy whatever u want. as long as i get married!! ha! ha!

sunday morning i went to take my wedding dresses… I think the white outfit is just too simple but drops nicely on me. and the other outfit looks quite funny, bcos it is just…well…different… my colour theme is definitely gonna be carca merba with his colour which is definitely SO out from mine… whatever…it doesnt matter..

whatever it is…i got my GL handbag from MV yesterday!!! it’s definitely the most expensive handbag i’ve ever got. and the best thing is that, it is a treat from him!! i felt so guilty actually, but i want it so much, yet i cant afford it… he said yesterday when i promised to buy him a bday present on his bday next month…’no need. YOU are my special birthday present this year…’. I was speechless… Thank u my darling…

e-borang progress is not good. SO SLOW!!! this way, i’ll end up doing this the whole of my working hours…