i can be considered a manager cos i’m in the third or maybe fourth layer. that’s the problem with public sector where there can be multiple layers of managers on top of you. so, when a particular task has to be done, it will go through all these layers, hence taking a long time to take action.
and also there is no clear picture on job description. on what level should i stop delegating. the problem with delegation of work is that more often than not, it doesn’t turn out the way you want it to be. of course if you want something done right, you gotta do it yourself, tapi larat ke nak buat semua kerja.
when i observe other colleagues, or my ex-bosses, they often delegate most of the work to the desk officers, hence making all the work cram in the desk of the officer, literally!! so, i like to reserve the most difficult task to do myself. but this has two main effects, one is denying the chance for the desk officer to learn, and second is that the officer becomes too dependent on me, the boss.
when i was a desk officer, i always do my work independently, ie. always trying to manage everything without going to my bosses. that and the fact that i was an egoistic person, always wanting to show that i can do it myself. but now, i always prefer to refer to my boss, since i’ve learnt that he has different approach as i do, so i might as well follow his approach, else i need to re-do everything twice. and also i notice that lately i’ve lost the ability to make good judgement and also to make good decision. now, actually decision-making is a very important criteria of a good manager. no decision is a bad decision. it’s better to make a bad one, than not making one at all.
that’s why lately i’ve been contemplating on furthering my studies. according to my ex-boss cum my colleague, by going for further studies, it opens our mind to new perspective and really helps in givng new ideas useful in our job.
so i guess, i’m applying for that study grant this year. not guaranteed that i will get it, since they say that the list is ready even before the interview! *gasp* that’s what they say. but we don’t know for sure, so there is no harm in trying. kalau ada rezeki dapatlah. one other problem, i still don’t know how to do the proposal paper. haiyaa…camanelah nak buat master ni, buat paper pun tak reti…
